The Post That Attempts to Explain Why I Am So Boring

I thought I had better check in. I noticed it's already Thursday and I've only posted once this week. Taking Monday off work always throws me for a loop concerning knowing what day it is. But after the great Easter dinner potato peel plug affair of 2010 I'm glad I had the day off. Sort of. It was spent taking my mom to appointments and then having a nice lunch with her.

It's been an odd couple of weeks months for me with blogging. I've really had nothing to say. Yes, me, the one who has in her lifetime been accused of talking too much. Can you believe certain people actually had the audacity to say that about moi?! My hubby and I have been in the throes of some decision making concerning my job and it's been hard. Trying to discern the will of God when it comes to stuff like this is hard especially when we are looking at things from very different ends of the spectrum. It's been hard because with a job like child care I want to do the best by the kids and parents so I go through a lot of guilt. If I'm thinking I might be changing jobs I'm already stressing way ahead of time how I will tell the parents. And I have had to fill spots in the dayhome because I have to work. And yet I'm stressed to the max worrying that I might have to give notice 3 months after they have started. And I don't even know if I'm taking another job. So I feel very torn and confused and steeped in guilt. I don't even know what I'm doing for sure yet but my mind and heart are consumed by this this day and night. It is always there right on the edge of my brain no matter what I am doing.

I've also had a one year old start this week so as anyone who's been around babies knows one year olds take. alot. of. work. I think I'm getting too old for this job. Hence the big decision we are trying to make. And as mentioned with my mom, I want to be there for my mom to be able to take her to appointments and help her out as she needs me as she gets older. But I have to work. Oh, how torn I feel. There are so many pros and cons to both staying in the job I have and in doing something else. Oops, there I go again. This decision takes over my mind like some kind of alien abduction thing going on.

So anyway that's my sad, sorry excuse at to why the blog has been, shall we say a tad bit boring as of late. Thank God for Friday's Fave Five. You guys don't realize how much I look forward each week to looking for blessings that I can add to the list of five and how much reading all your favorites lifts me up and gives me perspective. Thank you all for joining in on that with me. And on that note, we shall see you all hopefully tomorrow!