Oh My Pondering Thoughts

Mulling: a verb from the word mullen which means to grind up or mix thoroughly. Mulling: to think about slowly and carefully; to ponder.

Do you ever mull? I mull. And I seem to go in seasons of mulling. This is a mulling season for me. Thoughts and ideas and situations just hanging out in my brain. Going round and round. To give you an example of the things that bumping around my brain this morning vying for priority:

-why is it I am never hungry for breakfast except when a church wide fast is called and then I wake up starving the first morning?

-how on earth can a big fat worm get into a red pepper and not leave evidence of entry anywhere?
-why is it hair stylists always rave about my hair but I can never get it to do what I want?
-why oh why didn't I get my roots done before I got hi-lights?

-how does Celine Dion walk in those heels day in and day out?

-does one's feet permanently "freeze" in high heel position if stilletos are worn all the time?

-does melting ice cream and drinking it count as liquids in a fast?

-why is it a 5 year old furnace gives us more headaches than the ancient one we had before?

-why am I waking up with songs running through my head every single morning lately when that's never happened to me before?

-how can my hand towel disappear off it's hook and not one person in the family know where it is?

-why is it the kids these days seem to mega amounts of days off from school such as I only dreamed of when I was a kid?

Now if I take the definition of mulling and grind and mix thoroughly these thoughts it truly becomes scary! Just imagine this running through your mind:

-how on earth, didn't I get my roots, in those high heels?

-can a big fat worm, day in and day out, count as liquids ?

-I can never get, into a red pepper, and know where it is.

-if stilleto's are worn, running through my head, a church wide fast is called.

See what I mean? Oh my aching brain!

Church wide fasts are usually very timely for me. A time to purposefully focus my thoughts. Focus them not on the silliness and mundane and everyday, but onto the steadfast word of God. Onto the unchanging, unshifting, rock solid Word of the Living God. Mulling on the Word of God is what I should be doing.

Is it any wonder that God calls us to fast in His word? He made us and knows us in and out and how our humanness causes us to focus on all the different distractions that swirl around us each and every day. Fasting and purposefully setting that time aside to seek God through prayer and through His word, puts our thoughts in line with His. As we pray and ponder/mull over His Word, it releases us from confusion and puts our priorities straight in line with His. It humbles us in prayer as it breaks hardness of heart and bondages of sinful habits. As we set ourselves and our wants and cravings aside, and turn to the Lord, seeking Him we look for His handiwork in our lives.

May the cry of my heart be like David's when he wrote Psalm 119 (which is all about the Word of God) and more specifically verses 9 - 16:

"I seek you with all my heart; do not let me stray from your commands.
I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.
Praise be to you, O Lord; teach me your decrees.
With my lips I recount all the laws that come from your mouth.
I rejoice in following your statutes as one rejoices in great riches.
I meditate on your precepts and consider your ways.
I delight in your decrees; I will not neglect your word."