We are getting back to some semblance of routine around here. Whatever that is in this household. It's been a trying four months for my family, but we know the Lord was with us through it all. He was there at the hospital, He was there through the tests, He was there through the uncertainty. He was there in the victories and He was there shoring up our faith when we felt like faltering. Stroke is a vicious hard thing. It is hard to watch a lovely, active woman not be able to talk, walk or swallow and not return to her former life. It is hard to watch a secondary stroke 31/2 months later take whatever progress there had been. And it is hard to let a beloved mother and grandmother go, even though we knew God was calling her home. But thanks to the miracle of the cross and the resurrection we know she is with the Lord and that we will see her again. What a blessed hope believers in the Gospel have. That is surely "Good News", which is what the word gospel means.
So life has slowly been chugging along. I can't believe I haven't blogged with any semblance of consistency and haven't been on here for so long. I guess I'm actually not one that can write out all my thoughts, emotions and private happenings so freely. And you know what? My mind still seems like mush. Like I have nothing to say. And if I do, stringing the sentences together seems an impossible task. It's like I'm slowly dipping my toes back into the regular blogging waters, not sure of the temperature. But I know once I get back into it, it will come. So I'm very excited to get back to Friday's Fave Five tomorrow. I'm so glad that I have been practicing that exercise for the last couple of years. So see you all tomorrow.
7 comments:
Oh Susanne. I had wondered where you had gone. I am so sorry for your loss.
Well you sure strung all those words together real good! Still praying for you and your family Susanne!
In one of Elisabeth Elliot's writings she shared a poem that said "Do the Next Thing," speaking about how just doing the ordinary routine things helped during times of crisis and grief.
I think it is probably normal to feel mentally mushy after all that your family has experienced in the last several months. Grief has a way of blindsiding us, too -- my mom passed away five years ago, and there are some days something triggers a more intense sense of missing her than others. When I wish I could see or talk to her again, I remind myself I couldn't really wish her back from heaven. We do have a blessed hope of seeing believing loved ones again.
You just take whatever time you need!... We'll be here waiting!
I was just reading this week about a blogger who lost someone she was really close to. This was a first for her and she was overwhelmed by grief. She wondered if having religion would make any difference and asked someone she knew who told her that it doesn't lessen missing that loved one. But I think there is a huge difference losing someone in the Lord, as you put it so well: it is a blessed hope. And that makes all the difference in the world. Hugs to you.
I don't think there's ever a way to be prepared. I'm sorry for all you've gone through, and the ache you feel in your heart. It takes time to adjust. My father has been gone for over 5 years, and it still hits me like a kick in the gut sometimes. Thank goodness you have strong faith to sustain you. xo
You have my sympathy, Susanne. And I'm sure you have faith and memories to bolster you - both are a blessing, so continue to take comfort in those.
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