Friday, June 06, 2008

"Feelings, nothing more than feelings..."

Life. Funny how it keeps on a happening around a person. There has been lots going on around here in "real" life. Between daughter's graduation and subsequent upcoming move to another province for school, hubby's company shutting it's doors and everything that is going to present to our lives, full time work (my dayhome) and summertime planning for it while looking to fill a spot that is being vacated by one of the kids, teen's final exams coming up with the studying and final projects coming due, and stuff the Lord is working on in my heart, heavy duty stuff, the kind that you want to run from but know you must go through in order to move on with the Lord, my brain and heart are on a bit of an overload right now. So many emotional things to sort through it's overwhelming. It's a time I need to hear from God, to discern what direction He desires and what thoughts and reactions are in keeping with His word and what He would have for our lives. And it's been hard to post anything. Because I don't feel free to share details on a lot of stuff and yet, this is what my mind is full of, what is taking up all my thoughts and energy at the moment. I can't even seem to think of anything worthwhile, or moving, or even in the catagory of intellegent outside of all this churning in my life right now. I just got nothin'.

So in keeping with the fluff that's been going on around here lately, because we're on a fluff streak, I present more fluff. Actually it's a cute meme I snagged from Jo-Lynne at Musings of a Housewife. Hopefully pretty soon one of these areas will give a bit and I'll be able to put a string of words together, you know, that actually says something.

Feelings meme:

Reluctant to call the furniture store to report something wrong with the coffee table they delivered. I hate doing this kind of stuff.

Excited that hubby and I are celebrating our 25th Wedding Anniversary in a couple weeks.

Worried about moving my daughter. The logistics and cost of it are worrisome at this time.

Relieved that I had something to post today. :v)

Wondering: what job the Lord will bring around for hubby.

Certain that when all is said and done, God is our provider.

Cautious about eating anything that requires chewing because of little surgery type procedure I had to have done in my mouth.

Happy that I will have some time off this summer.

Love the Lord.

Adore my family.

Grateful for my best girlfriend who's always there for me.

I tag everybody. C'mon spill your feelings. Let me know if you did the meme so I can come and read.


GiBee said...

Oh, sweetie ... I'll be praying for you. We all go through those seasons, so we understand that you only want to share "fluff" right now!!! And pretty profound fluff, I might add.

ellen b. said...

I don't know dear just said a lot of meaningful stuff as far as I'm concerned, and it makes perfect sense. "Life happens" is definately a theme that is going around. One day at time...

annie said...

I know what you mean, I've been putting up a lot of fluff to avoid the things I can't really write on my blog. Too many people I know read it now so I can't just say anything... you know?

I think I'll do this Sunday!

Faith said...

Wow..personally I think this post DOES have meaningful things in it.
AND I can so relate to what you are going through. I also am going through a time where I need to hear clearly from the Lord and deal with a couple of issues without getting personal in my blog. It's hard, isn't it? (the whole internet thing...our blogs are...well...out there for anyone to see...)
Am praying for you.
I'll do the meme later today or tomorrow as I just did a "Friday Feast" and now must tackle my house before the girls get off the buses.

Sandy@ Jesus and Dark Chocolate said...

I agree with Faith...your post is meaningful.
I have so much going on right now, my brain is malfunctioning and the only thing that comes out on my blog is fluff. :)
But I think that is because so much is going on....and thinking would be another THING! LOL
I sometimes find when I have such an assortment of emotions and life going on that I don't seek the Lord like I should, I try to do it on my own. I appreciate your heart to hear from God.
May God grant your that discernment and direction.

Tonya said...

Great meme! And happy early anniversary. I can't wait until I can say I have been married in the double digits :)

Laurel Wreath said...

Oh I loved this, in fact did it on my site also. Happy early anniversary. 25 years, wow!!!

Barbara H. said...

This looks like fun -- I think I will try to do it early next week.

I know what you mean in that "Life happens." There are things I can't write about publicly yet and potential big changes that I don't want to mention to anyone at church yet -- just praying for the Lord's direction and the right outcomes.

I most enjoyed your "certainty" above -- that knowledge is a tremendous blessing.

Our Home Schooler and Jen said...

praying for you and your hubby

even though your reluctant to call the furniture store I reckon the sooner you do it the sooner its done

Yahoo CONGRATULATIONS to you and your hubby

God is our provider. Lean on Him

bless your friend

I may do this. Today however I am busy cleaning up for a house inspection with the land ladies friend
Ill let you know if I do do it


grey like snuffie said...

loved this idea, your home kind of sounds like our home, business issues and change, the last child left for college last year, no home church right now.... So glad that God does not change. That He is our Rock, the One we can count on when we don't see the way ahead----BECAUSE He already knows! I just have to keep reminding myself to look at Him and not all the circumstances.

Donnetta (momrn2) said...

Oh friend, how I hear your heart in this and how I can so relate!

Please know you are in my prayers as you face what lies ahead in the moments of your days!

Kelsey said...

Ill be praying!

Jenileigh said...

You and I are experiencing somewhat similar seasons in our lives. Its so hard to carry on with so many emotions stirring all the time. I so get how you feel! You can read about my emotions in my current post. Hugs! Praying all goes well dear one!

Beck said...

I am sending you one of those online hugs and it's a big one.
I hope things get easier SOON! (and I ALWAYS love reading you! ALWAYS!)

Chappyswife said...

Wow, Susanne, I certainly feel for you during this time. I pray that you get all the answers you need and that things ease up soon. Sometimes a dull 'ol routine sounds pretty good, huh?

The funny thing is, what you just wrote is EXACTLY what I've been feeling for a while now, but of course for different reasons. That is why I haven't been posting. What is there that I can say? Everything is so deep and a lot of the time heavy right now.

Hopefully I'll be back to normal posting soon.

gail@more than a song said...

Life just gets so busy and full at times doesn't it...and then when we get used to things all of a sudden it changes again! All those seasons....sounds like y'all are having changes too and are busy.
I've been gone and am playing catch up! Hope you're having a good week!

Jenny in Ca said...

I'm feeling alot of those things to...the part you wrote about, not the meme- I mean. Things have been going 100 miles an hour, and I feel like I can't catch my breath or even stop to catch up with the Lord. things have been fluffy over at my blog too.

It's always a pleasure to stop by and visit here.