It got me to thinking about my relationship with Jesus. (I know that's a crazy jump but it's how my brain works so I roll with it). I wonder if He thinks it's odd how my pendulum with Him swings. From cold to hot. Hot to cold. I had such a great goal at the beginning of the year to start the day with scripture and end the day with scripture. I was all gung ho and oh, so disciplined. In the first month. And then I got busy. And then I got tired. And then the Olympics came. And my pursuit of Him went from hot to cool as my pursuit of the couch and Olympic coverage took precedence. Why oh why do I allow that to happen? Why am I so unstable and unfaithful and, dare I say, fickle? I don't want it to be like that... and yet it does happen. While I desire and admire the disciplined Christian life, all too often the apathetic and lazy and distracted Christian life rears it's head.
Yet I know His grace allows me to start again. His mercy takes my repentance and encourages me to pick myself up and start running again. Because He knows. He knows me inside and out, better than I know myself. He knows my strengths and weaknesses and He calls to my heart through them. And it's amazing how He sends just the right person with the right set of words, whether they know it or not, to speak directly to me. It's amazing how the perfect scripture at the perfect time will jump out at me. And it's really amazing how He uses the weather of all things to get my attention. Oh how I love Him for His pursuit of me and you.
" But this I recall and therefore I have hope and expectation:
It is because of the Lord's mercy and loving-kindness
that we are not consumed,
because His [tender] compassions fail not.
They are new every morning;
great and abundant is Your stability and faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:21 - 23 Amplified Bible