Thursday, May 09, 2013

Ready to Go

The time has come.  Our Youngest has announced to us her plans for the fall.  After taking a year off from any kind of school, she is ready to do something.  She has told us she wants to go to bible school in the fall.  I knew something would come sooner or later but I was totally unprepared for the feelings of panic it raised up within me.  Panic for me!  Our last to jump out of the nest.  And while I'm thrilled for her and the route she is going, the thought of no more of my own children in the house is making my heart clench!  Ok, yes technically, Son is still home but he is usually gone for 2-3 week stints at a time and home for 1 or 2, so in my mind that doesn't count.  And that could change to permanently gone at any time.  Sigh.  How did this time come so fast?  It felt like just yesterday I was prying their fingers off from a death grip around my neck when I was trying to leave them in kindergarten?  Does anyone know how I can go back in time a bit?


8 comments:

ellen b. said...

Oh the bittersweet emotions that happen at this point in time. It's so weird. Makes you want to say the line in My Big Fat Greek Wedding..."Why you want to leave me" So glad that God carries us through.

Karen said...

I've been wishing the same thing. If only I could go back in time and have them all home with me again, when they were little. Time goes so fast. We are down to our last one in the nest:(

Chris said...

I used to cry a lot when each one left. Now I have the grandchildren, and in some aspects they're SO much better! :)

Barbara H. said...

I feel for you. We have just one left and he has one year left of Community College, then we'll see if he goes on to University or tries to find a job. It's exciting to see them taking responsible steps to adulthood but so hard to let go of the way things have been. Sometimes I look at their preschool pictures and think, "I just miss these little guys." Maybe that's one reason grandchildren have such appeal. :-) But there is a gap between leaving home and bringing back grandchildren where we just do the best we can with a lot of prayer and a few tears.

Mom24 said...

Oh Susanne, my heart aches for you. I know you're proud, but I also understand the feeling of wanting to turn back time. If you figure out a way, let me know...

Faith said...

when you learn how, could you teach me? had the SAME THOTS tonite....as I sat and watched her sing in the Select Chorus concert...realizing it's the last concert at the junior high. I am grieving the passing of the childhood years as we enter more into the teen years with our baby. And knowing my oldest is gonna be jr in college......i'm having a hard time with it this year for some reason. I even told my husband i now wish we had had more than 2 children. sigh........time flies.........

Snowbird said...

Oh....you poor love! You are lucky to have three children, one or other will always be visiting so hopefully your nest won't seem to empty.

I remember when my daughter moved out, it was hideous. I stood in her empty bedroom and sobbed for ages.

Now if you find out how to get time back please let me know....xxxx

Carrie said...

Oh. I am glad I am in the kindergarten stage when I read posts like these.

So your post was helpful. :) And I will pray for you as you make this new adjustment!