Saturday, March 01, 2008

Feeling very frustrated today. Things that I usually do day in and day out without thinking twice about now require a major plan. And what's really frustrating is that I don't even think of it until I go to do it and then realize I can't. Simple things like buckling the hooks on my b*a, pulling my shirt on, doing up my jeans button, opening and buttering a bun, peeling a banana. This puts a whole new light on a bad hair day. Shaving my legs required contortionism I didn't know I possessed, and hello, I got one armpit shaved before it dawned on me there is absolutely no way I can do the other one. How humbling to have to ask your thirteen year old daughter to do the other one for you. Same with applying deodorant. Because I cannot hold anything even in my fingers of the injured hand.

I'm very nervous about surgery on Monday, but in a way I can hardly wait because then at least, I can get on the road to healing and possibly at least using my fingers rather than sitting here with this broken bone floating around.

I want to say that just knowing you thought of me and said a prayer means more than you will ever know. I know all things work together for those who love God and even though at the moment I'm feeling very frustrated, that learning to ask for help from the Lord and totally having to lean on Him is a good thing. And even though it is very humbling, it is also a good thing to allow others to help.

I want to say so much more but this one handed typing is in itself a pain, so I'll just say that either my daughter here or Shalee will let you all know how my surgery went. And know that I'm still reading you all even though commenting is a pain in the uhm, hand.

28 comments:

Our Home Schooler and Jen said...

Praying for you
HUGS
Jen

Chris @ Come to the Table said...

I am praying for you Susanne. I will be back to check on you on Monday. Praying for your hand to heal quickly too!

Blessings to you and no comments needed at this time.

Anonymous said...

So good to hear from you!! I can only imagine the frustration. Praying all goes well with the surgery and that you'll have a speedy and uncomplicated recovery.

Kelli said...

Suzanne- praying for you on all the way through this. It can be frustrating, but I can promise you one thing.

If you let them help you, and let go, you'll all benefit so much :) This is the one thing that I struggled with over the last two years, and have found that when I just let them 'do for me' there's something bonding about it. Does that make sense? I don't know if I'm saying it right ...

I love ya- I'm praying for ya- and the surgeons and the family.

Beck said...

Susanne, I'm SO sorry this happened. I've been keeping you in my thoughts and prayers - and I hope that the surgery goes quickly and fixes your hand right up. Have a fast recovery, sweetie.
xoxoxxo

Donnetta said...

I can honestly say I know exactly how you feel!! I don't know if you remember my post about when I was out of commission with both arms at the same time?! Yes, I completely understand!!...

Oh my friend, I will definately be praying on Monday regarding the surgery!! Continuing to keep you in my thoughts and prayers!

Laura said...

Gosh I can only imagine how long it took you to just type this one post. You know I'll be praying for a quick recovery but in the meantime it is what it is. Don't fight it and allow the blessings to flow from it. Easier said than done, I know.

Hang in there,
xoxox

Anonymous said...

Hey you did a great job typing that with one hand!! You even used caps. In your honor I am typing this comment with one hand....it is weird!
:)
I will be praying for you....I know it's a bit worrisome as a mom to think of having any kind of surgery done.
I will be praying for you that all will go well. May God encourage you through all of this.

One handed is tough! :)

Kim said...

Oh my goodness, I am so sorry. I've been a lurker and figured this was a good time to comment! I broke my foot a couple years ago and was couldn't drive for 3 1/2 months. Breaking a bone is so challenging and having surgery is scary. Praying for you in Oregon!

ellen b. said...

I'm still praying for you Susanne. It's easier to give than receive. Oops the verse says it is more blessed to give than to receive. I've sometimes thought that for us independent human beings it is hard to receive when we need the receiving. I'm praying that God will give you the peace and enjoyment in letting others take care of things you cannot do right now. Also praying that God would cover you with peace over your upcoming surgery...

Melanie @ This Ain't New York said...

Praying for you.

Tammy said...

Susanne, I can imagine how frustrating things suddenly feel with only one hand to use!
Please know I'll be praying that the surgery goes wonderfully, and for your peace and quick healing!
Hugs!
~Tammu

PastormacsAnn said...

Praying for you my friend.

Faith said...

I found myself here browsing blogs, so you don't know me, but I wanted to offer my prayers as well. I hope the surgery goes smoothly and your hand heals quickly!

Anonymous said...

Still praying too. Hugs. Sarah x

gail@more than a song said...

I can't even imagine how frustrating it must be for you. Been thinking about you and praying for everything to go well on Monday with your surgery! That'll be great if you can get someone to update everyone.
Blessing to you Susanne!

Linda said...

I'll be praying for you Susanne. I've been away from the computer for a few days and just found out! I pray you will have peace about all this - and a successful surgery and quick recovery.

Barb said...

As busy as tomorrow is going to be for us, you can still rest assured you will be in my thoughts and my prayers, Susanne. I'll be glad when this is behind you.

I've thought so much about you trying to type with just one hand. all those other things never occurred to me, but good grief, I can't imagine getting dressed with only one hand. I should have thought of that because I saw this in action when Rob had his shoulder surgery last year. He couldn't even put on his own socks.

So I'm sure it's very frustrating, but Kelli's right - let everyone help you. They'll be blessed for it.

2nd Cup of Coffee said...

I have been thinking of you throughout the days and say a little prayer for you every time. I will esp. be praying tomorrow morning. I'll be in touch but just know that you are loved and being lifted up in prayer.

Laura said...

Hope the surgery goes well, and hope you are able to receive all the grace that God is giving you to be served and cared for right now.

Pam said...

Praying for you even now, dear Susanne. May God sweep in and quickly heal you as you recover from surgery today, dear one.

Lori said...

Girl I am praying for you right now. Humbling indeed... But sending you great big hugs!!

Cyndee@Riezzee's Place said...

I can't imagine the wrangling of little ones. I will pray for the surgery. Blessings

Islandsparrow said...

You're in my prayers Suzanne!

Ms. Kathleen said...

I pray the surgery goes smoothly. Our son broke his wrist last summer and it did make it hard for him. Prayers going up for you! Oh, and be sure and let your family spoil you! ☺ God Bless!

Eden said...

I praying for you.

Doris said...

Continued prayers...

Islandsparrow said...

Just read the surgery update over at Shalee's - I'm glad it went well. And I'm praying for relief of pain and a super quick recovery!!